so.
'you look for the truth. and it comes knocking on the door. and you say, Go away! I'm busy looking for the truth!'
I think i read that somewhere, or something like that...

replace 'the truth' with 'something'
i've been looking for something
and it might be knocking on the door
but i don't recognize it through the peephole
but what do i have to compare it to, really
and worse yet is knowing
that it still longs for that first something it felt